Meditation and contemplation have led me on new paths of discovery. Reflections on self and my connect with the universe.
As I sit meditating today, I let my mind wander before I enter the deep stage of 'no thought zone' (yes, this actually happens). Keeping routine thoughts at bay is hardly a challenge anymore, it is this inquisitive, seeking mind that prods for answers from my sub-conscious. I am rarely disappointed. And so, my mind takes me on yet another journey..this time trying to evaluate what I have learnt in the past few years.
Acceptance is one attitude that has been so unburdening for me. 'Resistance versus acceptance'. Not for a minute am I talking of a meek surrender to circumstances or persons. It is a subtle shift to being an observer, of purging emotions that hold me back. This change has been of great help during my tumultuous past decade and has helped me deal with challenges more philosophically. I now have the ability to look at the larger picture.
I am here for a reason.
What's happening to me in the now has basis in the past (Karma).
Everything is as it should be.
Appreciation of what I am endowed with, of how exciting life is. We take so much for granted, don't we? As children we grew up in wonderment ~ taking joy in little things such as bubbles, a dragon fly or shapes we 'saw' in clouds. In recent years, I have started reliving these smaller joys. The sound and sight of birds is one thing that immediately connects me to nature. Birds are a symbol of freedom to me, of adventure. I love the greens, the great outdoors, long walks on a beach and the hills. My recent ability to live my life more mindfully has facilitated this ability to live life in the moment, savour small joys of life. After all, they make for a grand life!
Gratitude ~ Aha! the magic mantra of these times. Admittedly, I was introduced to it after reading The Secret. However, I have moved on from this process of expressing gratitude as in the 'Ask, Believe, Receive', formula. It now means being genuinely thankful for just about everything~ my challenges that made me more resourceful and resilient. The thorny people who made me adapt and still ended up helping me in some way. For all my ailments which are considered crippling..I'd have never grown as a person without them. For all the goodies in my life~ from small things to my occasional indulgences. The ability to enjoy them. For the capacity to be of help. For all the fabulous people who surround me~ family, friends and Mentors who have helped shape my path. Actually, when one comes to think about it, there's so much to be grateful about, mind you, without any motive behind doing so.
God, Oh God, I ask You, aren't all these your gifts?
This incredibly complex and beautiful Universe that scientists are still trying to fathom.. I am such a tiny particle in the vastness of things. My mind stops its meandering as I settle deeper into my sub-conscious.
You are the Universe, God..the Universe is in You. You are its Creator.
A few moments later a new insight takes birth. God, You are seated in my Soul, which means the Universe is also in me...my consciousness has the capability to span the entire Universe.
By Your Grace, God.